Tuesday, January 7, 2014

Chasing Highs...

**I wrote this post a few months ago. I never posted it, obviously. In this new year, a year that I plan on living with intention(s) and not resolutions, I feel that it is still something I need to share because it is part of my journey through life. In other words, it is a part of the many lessons I am learning, and have learned from the world around and within me, and, they are lessons that are inevitably shaping me as an individual.** 

Lately...

I've been doing a lot of self-reflection.


I have to be honest in telling you this because...

I can't be sugar coating the reality in which I am living.

As I've spent a lot of time looking within for answers and...

Based on the many conversations I've had with those who are closest to me...

I came to realize that I've been chasing highs! (Or at least looking for a high during my down time, where I had no goal to chase!)

Nothing like going into a sky diving simulator to feel as high as a kite.
Literally ;)

Without ever realizing it up until now...

There was a part of me that felt 'incomplete' in some way, shape or form because there wasn't a high to be had...ALL THE TIME!

As I'm a person who very much enjoys her quiet time (to recharge and simply be) as well as a person who...

Loves to find her presence in every moment...


I couldn't understand why I was feeling this way. (I mean, I love doing 'nothing' because it is in these 'nothing' moments that I'm actually doing the most for myself on a much deeper, spiritual level.)

Then it hit me.

As I FUrthered my thoughts into the notion of chasing highs...

I realized that for the past three years of my life...

I've always had something to chase!

Be it...

  1. A goal;
  2. A date by which to complete something by; and (not limited to)...
  3. An event to get excited about (a competition, race etc.).

And now...

As I don't really' having any concrete plans/goals set in place...

Well...

This I believe to be the reason why I was feeling a little bit out of sorts.

But not any more.

As I've been spending a lot of time internally and externally voicing my thoughts about my withdrawals of always having something BIG to work towards to (and to look forward to)...

Not only have I been able to see and understand why it is I've been feeling the way I have been but...

I've also been able to fall back in love (slowly but ever so surely) with the simplicity that life has presented me with.

In other words...

Not knowing what is coming next has left me...

Living and breathing each and every moment to the very FUllest! (I've definitely not mastered this, although I am mindFUl of my need to be practising this intention.)

In many ways...

This realization has left me feeling high again! (More and more every day...)


All to say...

The goals and events that I have worked towards to and lived...

Those are accomplishments that have made a huge contribution to the person I am today.

But most importantly...

Every single hour, day, month and year in-between these events, well, these are...

The moments that are (and will continue to) shape the person I am, and will become.

So now....

I guess you can say that my ultimate intention is...

To live life abundantly (always) and...

To be grateFUl for all that I have, presently, without thinking...

I always need more. (And that I need a goal to feel more complete! I need to appreciate what I have in this moment.)

If anything (and to reiterate)...

I need to stop looking for more (for the next big thing!) and...

I need to see that what I am living right now is in fact...

Plenty. (Should I decide to work towards another concrete goal, then I do. And when I do, I know the timing will be just right. Until then, I will continue living the biggest goal I have ever reached. That being the goal of reaching the healthiest version of myself in both body and mind.)

**Thank you SuperFit for reminding me of this. I couldn't be more grateFUl for you, and the lessons you teach me...perhaps not always knowing that you are. I love you.**

Questions FU You...

Do you feel the need to chase highs? Or goals?
Is it difficult for you not to have a concrete goal, or event to work towards?

Stay Tuned FU More On *CaNdY FiT*

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19 comments:

  1. It's so funny that I was just thinking about this during my workout today. I've always been chasing a goal, chasing a high. But right now, I don't have any races on my schedule. I'm focused on getting my injury healthy and that's it. Thanks for the reminder!

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  2. love this! you're right... we don't always need to be chasing highs... our high can be life in general... day to day life because we're healthy, happy, and surrounded by people we love :)

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  3. Oh girl, I so get this. Great post.

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  4. Awesome post! I am bad about chasing highs... I'm working on being content!

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  5. Wonderful words Kierston! I get it - though with getting older, I realize how precious the moment is and how content it makes me to just be. Not always successful, especially after highs, it's not always easy to catch yourself.
    But having some time of slowing down alternating with an event or a goal to look forward to and to work towards - I guess this is the perfect combo.

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  6. So funny - this year more than ever I'm trying to enjoy the current moments instead of looking toward the next "big" thing. It's pretty much an ongoing quest!!

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  7. Very well put... very insightful. This is part of my problem/funk of late; I'm not in a position to chase further or faster right now, so I think I was going for different/new, but then getting frustrated that I didn't really know how to do the new things!

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  8. I do like to have things to look forward to but I am certainly one who appreciates the everyday moments as well.

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  9. Great outlook. It does seem like a lot of us tend to spend quite a bit of time chasing highs. I've really enjoyed taking a step back and taking in lately. Appreciating the little and everyday things. It's been quite nice.

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  10. I like having concrete goals - it helps me stay focused and driven - and sometimes even gives me purpose

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  11. Looks like superfit it a good "fit" for you. He is wise and so are you. The world tells us to always chase something bigger and better, sometimes it's good. Most of the time, it's not needed because we have everything we already NEED> yes?!

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  12. LOVE this Kierston!!!! Really so much to think about here & I am with you...

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  13. I am always chasing the next high. I have to have goals, I struggle without them. This is something I have known for years. Goals keep my me motivated and focused.

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  14. Great post. I definitely am used to living under pressure and feel out of sorts when the pressure is not on -- until I get used to it and relax. That first picture is really gorgeous. Really,

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  15. I am not chasing goals, I am earning my goals. I am working towards my goals. That is very different than chasing in my mind.

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  16. Wow, this is so interesting to look back- even a few months- and have a changed perception.

    I often find having goals easier to manoeuvre through life- but then it relates to myself enjoying routine and comfort- something I am trying to break out of!

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  17. Love this. Yes, I always have to have something to chase, it seems, and while getting it is great, I sometimes in the process stop cold, look around, and wonder if I've been in a fog for XX amount of time while chasing the goal I'm after. I need to appreciate NOW much more. Thanks so much for reminding me!

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  18. Oh I love this and totally get this. Yes, I found myself always chasing something and have come to a similar realization recently. But also realizing that it's OK to step off that crazy track too.

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  19. I can relate to this so VERY MUCH! I always have a to-do lists, and probably one too many projects on the go. I want to learn to slow a bit in 2014...it is still a HUGE work in progress, but I am trying!

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